In December I had stomach and back pain which I thought was completely unrelated. My stomach was uncomfortable and sensitive to touch and I felt I needed to eat a lot of antacid. I thought that my back was hurting because of the way I was using the computer so much. Things did not improve so late January I went to see my doctor. She didn’t like the amount of pain I was in and was also mystified by the symptoms. She arranged for me to have an ultra sound the next day.
That day changed my life, as I had an ultra sound and a CT scan. Things moved very quickly and I was told that I would be seeing a liver specialist the next week. During the month of February it was confirmed that my liver was filled with cancer and that it was malignant. If that wasn’t bad enough I was told that the type of cancer that I had is so unique that it’s impossible to treat.
Needless to say this blog has now changed. I will write, when I can, about this process and be honest with you with how things are going. I have some good days and some pretty bad days but I am receiving lots of love and support from friends and family. I think this will be the best way to keep you up to date about my life, by putting it all in the blog.
To be continued….
janeduttonutrecht 
Comments
Hi jane, i only recently stumbled upon your brilliant blog and i havent stopped reading. Today i returned to see if you posted again….it rendered me speechless and very sad to read this post. Its incredibly brave of you. I sincerely wish you a lot of strength and hope for the best. For your own sake, please dont stop writing.
My mom told me last week and you have been (and will continue to be) in my prayers!
Jane, we all love and admire you. And this next journey of yours will cause us to love, respect, admire, adore and emulate you even more.
Dear wonderful Jane, I’m so sorry about this dreadful news. Thank you for your willingness to share your story with us. A hug is enclosed.
Thank you for sharing your story and journey with us, Jane. You know how much we treasure your words and deeds. Leslie
It must take a lot of strength to blog about your journey with cancer. I admire you a lot for this decision and for allowing me to follow your journey. With lots of love. Jill
Jane, Thoughts and prayers are with you on your journey. You are an incredibly strong woman.
Dear Jane, you are a great observer of life. I don’t know what you are going through. Please let me know, when you can and want to, since your words are so illuminating. Hope you are absolutely pain free. p.s. bravery is highly overrated. Ask for help when you need it…people who love you are waiting to give themselves to you. Let them.
Yes Jane, what Susan says is so true. Also about the bravery! It is just horrible, shitty news and it must be even more terrible to be in a strange country right now. I hope you will find comfort in the people around you and your books and writing.
What a terrible news. My thoughts are with you. Love, Jenny
I’m so sorry to read that you are going through this. I will keep you in my prayers.
Love, Melissa
Thoughts and prayers your way Jane. Blessings to you and may your journey be peaceful and filled with love and joy.
Thinking of you and your family! I hope there will be more good then bad days.
Because you are a natural and fluent writer, it may mean a lot to your mental health, during your duress, to keep writing about your struggles with your illness. I, for one, am willing to read about all your stages of coping and how you handle that. I would prefer to support you and comfort you while you walk this trail. You are now on my priority prayer list. Is there anything else I can do from over here on the west side of Canada? I would like to give you a hug. If you only knew how hard it is for me to give hugs, you might appreciate that a little more. About the time each day that I am saying prayers for you, you will be arousing from after the sunrise. I have a few rude words about cancer that I am yelling right now. It is all inside me head, but still hate hate hate what cancer has done to my friends and family. Please, please keep writing your blogs that will be so helpful to us when we need to know what is happening with you. It may be able to help our own struggles.
OMG, Jane! I can only say that I am deeply sorry to hear this news. Last year I went through liver related treatment because of an invasive virus. Please feel free to contact me if you want to scream or cry or just vent or even want to receive a ‘feel good’ word or smile by someone you don’t know too well, but from someone who cares. I live in Zeeland, and you know me on FB. Be sure to contact me if you need ANYthing. – Sherry
Dear Jane, so sorry to hear this. Do go visit Shers in beautiful Zeeland if you can. She is wonderful and you have so much in common.
Taking a moment to think about you, I turned and looked out of my office window. I recalled how we would sometimes talk about the sights ourside our windows at the Gale Free Library. That was something of a Beatrix Potter view, now I feel as if I am gazing at the Busy World of Richard Scarry. Thinking of you with love, Paula
Dear Jane,
I think of you and your lovely family every day and pray that you can be as comfortable and pain free as possible. Be assured that I am sending warm and positive thoughts your way and that I admire you and your brave N. very much!
Dear Jane.
We were heartsick to hear of your illness. Life is just not fair. We are glad that you have such a warm circle of family at this time. We think of your smile and your laughter. You are such a role model for young women, including our daughter.
Vance and Anne